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From: geoff@burl.UUCP (geoff)
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Subject: Re: independence-dependence cycles
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Date: Mon, 14-Jan-85 20:03:35 EST
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Posted: Mon Jan 14 20:03:35 1985
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Dave, you are definitely not alone.

Sad, but true.  I have seen this cycle more often than I care to recall.
In some ways I find that I am the happiest when in a 'fuck the world'
state of mind (not really negative about the world, just not allowing
it to impinge upon me).  I get all sorts of work done and just lose myself
in the computer.  The 'creative fire' or whatever seems like just compensation
for whatever I am missing.  For a while.  Then I feel a need to reach out,
etc, which I do.  This aspect of the cycle is the most 'fun', but seems to
be fleeting.  The rest of the cycle is less so, until I am back lost in a
computer again.

It does get a little wearying going round and round, though.  Especially
when the cycle can be seen far more clearly in retrospect than in day-to-day
life, so that what you do at any given point is clear and reasonable (at
the time).  This last point is what makes the cycles so hard to break -- at
any given point you really are doing pretty much what you want to do.  It just
doesn't last very long.

		geoff sherwood