From: utzoo!decvax!harpo!ihnp4!ixlpc!mhauck
Newsgroups: net.suicide
Title: Bad memories
Article-I.D.: ixlpc.231
Posted: Thu Jan 27 10:33:59 1983
Received: Sun Jan 30 09:28:41 1983
Reply-To: mhauck@ixlpc.UUCP (M.J.Hauck)



I post this here because it doesn't belong in net.poems.
I'm diabetic and hurting right now and needed to release
the pain I have felt for a long time.
I'm a poetic and writer at heart so it is my way of releasing
the emontions pent up inside of me.
This is no apology just a statement of fact.

Memories
These memories are sad
Pain seems to stay more then happiness
I remember hot water and hurt
Cut fingers being sewed together
Car colliding and time and teeth lost
Pain of body and mind for all days

Released now forever
the cruelty of growing up
Being laughed at and rediculed
Being slapped and hit for fun.
No friends, alone but not alone.
Echos of the taunts follow me

And now with the problems of
living a full free life
no more can I live as I did
Sweetness is more emeny
I have be hurt again by my body
What good is life this way?

Mary Hauck
1/28/83
What a way to begin the new year.